1.1.2013

Our 1st new year countdown, we've go through 2012 together. Love you and the 2013 new year kiss you gave me. :3 There will be even more days and years in the future that we will go through together. ♥

-1.1.2013- ♥

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27th December 2012, Penang trip with E.x family.
The day that we are officially get together after 2 year plus of unofficial relationship. I wanna thank to those people who've help me in this, Sir Kk and Amelia. I really hoping this day will come, but I never expect it will come. 1st day of the trip, Kk and Amelia was asking me to announce. But I rejected it. I just keep hiding myself from this. Until the 2nd day after lunch, you stand up and said that you want to announced something, you said you want to introduce someone. I'm holding Claire's hand and whispering Oh Shyt. You just grab my hand, and I try to run away, but you just pull me back and said "meet my girlfriend" loudly to our E.x Family. It's just so touching. I really love you so much. After that you ask me, do you know why I announced it? I said I don't know. You answer me, because I love you. Omg. I'm in love with you so deeply. I love you :')

-27.12.2012- ♥

We are OFFICIAL! -27.12.2012- ♥

27th December 2012, Penang trip with E.x family.
The day that we are officially get together after 2 year plus of unofficial relationship. I wanna thank to those people who've help me in this, Sir Kk and Amelia. I really hoping this day will come, but I never expect it will come. 1st day of the trip, Kk and Amelia was asking me to announce. But I rejected it. I just keep hiding myself from this. Until the 2nd day after lunch, you stand up and said that you want to announced something, you said you want to introduce someone. I'm holding Claire's hand and whispering Oh Shyt. You just grab my hand, and I try to run away, but you just pull me back and said "meet my girlfriend" loudly to our E.x Family. It's just so touching. I really love you so much. After that you ask me, do you know why I announced it? I said I don't know. You answer me, because I love you. Omg. I'm in love with you so deeply. I love you :')

-27.12.2012- ♥

21.12.2012

你总是有一种魔术能再次深深的让我再爱上你. 那魔术不是谎言, 是真心话. 今天你问我说要听真心话吗? 我心里慌了一下. 真心话? 难道你要说你不爱我吗? 你说 : "你是我的第一个女朋友, 当然我以前也追过女生啦, 但是没有和她们在一起." 我说 : "你也是吖." 当我听到那些话我很开心, 虽然不是什么"你是我第一个女朋友也是最后一个"的诺言, 就是觉得心里那丝甜甜的. 然后你说 : "我很坏的." 但是我说 : "我爱吖." 我真的等到了. 以前总在想, 不知道何年何月我才可以等到这一天换来你的真心. 这一次我真的等到了. 是真实的. 我爱你. :') <3

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18 - 19th Dec 2012 Night
我真的很开心. 原来把心里的话说出来的感觉是那么的好的. 当你问我, 我怎么了? 怎么我对你的态度和平时不一样了, 你问我还爱你吗? 我的心多么的挣扎, 我害怕我说我还爱你后, 你会回答什么? 你让我选, 我们以后还会在一起还是分手当兄妹, 我心里当然是想要和你在一起, 但我下不了决定, 因为我不知道你在想什么. 我问你, 那你的选择是? 你回答我说, 继续在一起. 但是我不想要最后这段感情里只有我一个人在爱着, 所以我真的鼓起勇气问了, 如果我和你继续在一起, 你是真心的爱我吗? 还好, 你的答案让我觉得我的心安定下来了. 你说感情是一定有的, 只是你表达的方式不一样, 你谈恋爱的风格也与别人不一样. 那时候, 我决定, 你, 我爱定了. 最后, 我知道, 我从来都没有在骗自己. 我知道你是爱我的. 谢谢你. :') <3

心里的话

To : 他
我没有怪你为什么看我爱你而付出那么多我却什么都没有得到. 是, 我不甘愿. 2年多接近3年的感情, 不是说能放下就放下的. 刚开始那段时间, 我常问 : 我是你的谁? 你总是回答说 : 不知道? 妹妹瓜.. 那时候我觉得这答案让我很迷茫. 后来, 问题问久了让我觉得不想问了. 我们之间很多回忆, 但都是只有我一个人的感情在里面. 都是我自己一厢情愿, 但是我没有怪你, 没有生气你, 只是明白了一切, 也不想让我们都一直的痛苦下去. 既使是痛也只有我一个人痛, 我还是那么的爱你, 放不下你, 放不下这一切. 你朋友的话让我明白这一切都是只有我一厢情愿, 那种感觉真的很痛, 但我忍住不哭, 因为我不要你觉得内疚. 都不是你的错. 我爱你 </3 :'(

My life.

This blog records all the things that happen in my life and what is in my mind that I really wanna tell but no one can understand unless if they have been through it. I don't trust anyone anymore. That's why I choose to write down everything in a blog than telling a person/friend who said they listen to me but actually they don't.